Saturday, December 27, 2008

Hrrmmm..I just realised that I've a few drafted post...Well, gona post it laa...
Ooo..this blog...Soo pity laa...Cant manage any time for this little thingy....

Anyway, in brief...Gona post something now...Have to...Pls dun stop me.... :-p

I hardly online now...N rarely chat now coz somehow its hard for me...Not goin into ddetails about it....Dont be fooled tho if u see me in 'online' mode....Wasnt me but my bro...Long story cut short, everything is automatic....I know you guys misses me, but what can do...Wait till I get my own lappy and broadband ok????

More of sad news, I'm still phoneless...N heck!! I think I'm getting used to it, which I dun enjoy it at all coz I sometime do miss texting and calling...especially to my bie....Worst, its holiday now for more than 1 month, and I havnt get to meet most of my fren!!! DAmnnNn!!! Coz they cant get to me unless I freakinly secretly sneak dady's fone to my room in the middle of the night....Means I'm gona receive ur text a lil late....If not, they you'll find ur text time will be pending....dammnn!! Unless, if u're lucky...Coz sometime I do have fone to borrow...But not for long.....

eee..this is sooo embarassing....Anways, Im hard to reach, but just drop me texts..I'll make sure to read it, tho abit late...

Ok den..Move on to the next topic...Lets see, Christmas just ended....Wasnt that fun for me tho....None of my friend come for visit...Well, its ok tho....We dont actually do a big one....

And meanwhile, I'm still hunting for a job....So far, I've gone for interview with sharing planet, all joy, some boutique, unisense, starbucks...And they all rejected then few of the company didnt actuthey really reject me, but they want me to sign a contract......Thats not for me tho...FYI, am not gona stick to ur company for long....Goosshh!! I need cash during the holiday and a new freaky phone!!!! Mom dont wana contribute, thats the problem....huuuhuuu....

4 more days to New Year...Gessshh!!! Time really flies....And I dont even know what I've achieved soo far...hrrmmmm....My 2008 new year resolution....Have I resolve any of it??? hahaha!!! I dont think soo at all....Shiiatt...Lousy....

Last, Happy New Year 2009 readers........!!!! May you get drunk the night before and puke all over the place and wake up with major headache@migraine...Nggeehheeee.....

*dun mind me...Am just makin myself happy / makin fun of myself to forget that I'm gona celebrate in 'single' status...Tho I dun think I could go out and get wasted that*

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Am free now...Owh yeah!!!!
No more books, no more papers for me nemore.....At the moment....Damn!!! Am soo glad that I'm finally officially done with my A-Level....

Thank God also that I'm finally out of Inti....The last few month was a tough one for me....Not just in terms of studies, but also some other issues....Somehow, I became the center of attention for these guys in school....But am not bragging about it at all...Why?? Coz those attention warent good at all....Stupid boys...I duno wats up with them and whats goin on in their tiny lil' pea brain...All they could do was talking talking n talking shit bout other people....Their just worst then us gurls gossiping.....Shiiattt!! For God's sake, let me leave Inti in peace ok???

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Am halfway through my exam....Like 5 more papers to go....All together 14 papers for only 3 subjects...Can you imagine??? Naaaa, my own fault...Should have worked harder for my AS exam....Well, no time for regret now....Gotta focus on the paper now....

Slept for whole 2 hours like a baby today..As soon as i reached home of course...HAH!! Cant wait to fill all my sleepless night after 20th Nov...And GOshh!!! I'm finally done with A-level....

Am counting days to meet some all friend too....Its been long....Even one of them dat I've never get to meet up with her for the last 2 years...Missed her soo much....Wonder how she'd look like now..

Read about SMK SUNGAI MAONG ( my high school ) today in Borneo post..."SMK Sungai Maong continues to shine"...Wowwww!!!! Unbelievable....Am actually surprised...Sungai maong used to be the school where all the so called useless, naughty, hopeless student study...No offence to those people who've studied there....I know I was once a student there before....Guys would fight among each other, among races....Reasons: jealousy, gurls, U 'be-song' me, I 'be-song' me...U jeling me, I jeling U then we fight...Gurls quarreled in the class, by the toilet@washroom....Pulling hairs and trying to tear each other's uniform....

Luckily for the gurls, none I've witness or heard that got injured....Mostly happened to the guys...damnn!! Once,therez a fight happened right in front of me...But same old thing laaa...Once somebody got hurt, they got chickened and run away leaving the injured one behind...Then teacher will now come, send him to the hospital....And in some cases, police would now come to the school, catch those involved...blaaablllaa....

Owh, those days....Was a young gurl then....Watching those 'free show' somehow excites me...
And now, the school got awarded a certificate of recognition for excellence in PMR and SPM...And last year, was a sole representative for Sarawak and Sabah in some robotic competition...The school's sport team also won the 2007 Malaysian School Sport Council S'wak Jubilee Relay....and for this year, they got 2nd place for INTI game design tournament (which Im un -aware of though Im currently in Inti)...Lousy me...

Gessshhh!! I left that school 2 years ago and look how far they've gone today....Amazing!!! Good job Sungai Maong...Keep it up!!! Well, I used to be 'ashamed' going to that school...But not anymore...Ahaaakkxx!!!

2.30am now and am craving for chocolate....Its been long since I had my last one....Please people, get me some chocolate!!!! And am hungry!!! Diet really suuxxx!!! Wat can do...All because of beauty....Muauahahahahaha!!!!
*planning to register myself for gym...since I'm gona have a long long holidays after the exam...But now, where can I get money???*

Tuesday, September 16, 2008


Again....I've let mom and dad down....All because of my final exam's dont understand laa....The older I get, the dummer I am now...I guess....Somehow, I cant absorb anything I'm studying...Is it because of distraction from my surrounding or just be being soo lazy....The worse part is dat being the only gurl in the family... Thats when all the attention @ pressure gets u...

Not talking to mom and dad at all....They're just too much this time...I guess all I can do now is focus on my studies, and pray that I'm flying to KL next year to continue my studies....Thats all....Get the heell out of this house @ Kuching asap....Come on, Im 19 into 20 now...I need my own freedom laaa.....Cant I do what I want whenever I want without getting your permission??? Without have to ask???

I'm oso phoneless....Which is not cool at all....Cant believe I'm still ok without my phone...Tho sometime I miss texting and calling and receiving text and calls....I miss his text and calls tooo!!! I'm nothing without my phone!!! ArrrgghhhH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blaaabllaabllaaa....I'm fcuked up and stressed and depressed etc......Out of word liaw.....Todays grammar suxx...I noe....

Sunday, September 7, 2008

10 Words Women Loves to Use

1) FINE !!

~ The word women use to end an argumentwhen they are right and u need to shut the hell up...

2) 5 Minutes

~ If shes getting dressed, it means half an hour later. 5 minutes is only 5 minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3) Nothing

~ To calm before the storm...It means something!! And you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with NOTHING usually end in FINE!!!

4) Go ahead ( me I use 'Go ahead LAaaa!!!' )

~ This is a DARE, NOT permission. So DONT U DARE DO IT....!!

5) Loud *SIGH*

~ Is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. Means she thinks your are and idiot and why shez wasting her time arguing with you about nothing. [ Refer no 3 for reference]

6) Thats Ok @ Sokay

~ The most dangerous statement a woman can make to a man. Thats ok means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when yu will pay for your mistake.

7) Thanks

~ If a woman thanks you, do not question or faint. Just say 'you're welcome'.

8) Whatever....

~ Is a women's way of saying 'Fcuk YOU!!!'

9) Dont worry about it, I get it...

~ Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doin it herself. Ths will alter result in a man asking "Whats wrong??'" or "Whats your problem??"
For the woman to reply, pls refer to no 3 again....

10) Dont want!!!!

~ Means she want la, you idiot!!!!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

So lazy to update laaa!!!!!!!

Soooryy Zee, I know u've been checking up on me.....But am tooo busy + lazy to update nowadays.....Ada story pun kedak xda story.....
Plus, we're having our external exam soon u noe.....Around mid october....Soo gotta really struggle for it...Since my AS result suxx....Don't ask what did I get.....

Btw, no pictures for IntiFest and Kuching Fest Stret Parade....Sooryyy people...Need a brand new camera.....

August :
2 weeks holiday was totally suxx ( end of august )...All I did was study, study, study...And in fact not a serious one....Was stranded at home all through the week, except if my cousin came to culik me out laaa....Then there was problem arised by the bf's house agent....Stupid old lady don't pay the house rent to the landlord, and instead eat all the money up...F**kin murtha fcuker...After the whole thing settled, where the bf have to pay the house rent again for the second time, he flew to KL and enjoy himself there...Release tension + stress...bllaaabllaalbaa....Abandon me here all alone....*huuuhhuuuhuu*

Then was having some conflict with some bitch whom somehow cant let go of her ex bf which is currently my la wana story....Buat sakit hati jak....Somehow people just don't like us to be together....

Wat else??? Owhh..Merdeka celebration.....Which is the next day after my conflict with the bitch and the bf....Suppose to go club for the countdown, release tension la tek.....But then my friend cancelled the plan and decide to join someone's birthday party, which I'm not interested in....Cried whole night + no appetite to eat still wana go people's birthday....Soooryy laa...Not in the mood....

September :
Not yet laaa....Maybe next update....hehehehee.....

And lastly....Am broke!!!! Arrrggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need cashh!!!!!

Monday, July 28, 2008

Hye there,

Am busy.....Obviously.....
With IntiFest....Some sort of food fair in college...And I'm in charge of decoration....
This year aiming for "Best Stall Decoration" and "Best Profit"...Hopefully get one of those...hehehehe....Thats why soo busy....Our department got 2 stall to set and decorate..Huuhuu...And all I know is that I have biology brain instead of creative brain....U get wat I mean....

Then I'm also taking part in Kuching Parade....This year gona be a blast for our college.....We're wearing extra ordinary costume apart from the ordinary cultural costume....Hahahahaha....Too bad I'm still deciding on the costume....Curious??? Go and witness it for yourself...Its on 1st August at the city....KUCHING laaa....And of course, this year we're expeccting to win....Hehehehe....I'm not sure about the the title of the category tho...

Orite now, gotta go and finish up my decorating stuff thingy.....Its this saturday, 2nd August....DAmMm!!! My feet gona hurt after the long walk the night before.....*yaaayyadaaa yaadaaa....*
Will update again about those event.....Hopefully with some pictures this time.....


Friday, July 25, 2008

Condolence For A Fren Of Mine....

Why is life so VULNERABLE???

I just got a news that my friend's gf died few days ago back in Africa....Due to fire incident...OMG...I was totally shock + nervous + scared + pain in the chest like somebody just stabbed me....yaayydaaayyaadaaa...Geeessshh!! Its like I was the one who lost somebody close to me....Damnn!! It hit me real hard...

Just few months ago another friend of mine was talking bout his late father....And yeah...Was almost in tears when I heardhis story....Then just last week, my bf remembered his late sister (after listening to some song)....And he finally let it out to me....I never dare to question about it cause I know how sensitive this issue is to him....O my God...I never for once see how a tough guy like him become soo sad...He didnt show it...But just by looking into his eyes...I feel the pain...And then this...Died in a fire...O osshh!! I cant imagine it...I dont even wana go to that part...I feel the impact on me even though I dont noe who she is...

Hey T,

I’m so sorry to hear of your recent loss;
I’m sending my sympathy;
If you need someone to help you now,
Please, friend, call on me.

Remember that shez gona be with you...Always...
Be strong friend...Life goes on....

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Soory for the late update people...Been very-very busy lately....Huuuhuuu....

Busy revising for my external exam, that started on 15th May.....Coincidently falls on the same date as Yan's birthday....Sooory my dear for I cannot celebrate it with you.....But I do have something for you tho.....Just searching for time to give it to you....Well, actually the problem lies on how to give the pressie to you...For all you know, I still cant drive the car out anytime I want...Pathetic...And I think I've develop 'phobia-tic' feeling on driving my mom's manual car....Long story cut short..I'm sooo use to driving my aunty's and the bf's automatic car....huuuhuuu.....

Ok, cut the crap....Yan...U just wait yaa...Anytime I just stop by ur hse....

Secondly, this is for Azee....I bet u'll read this....Thanks for sponsoring me the other day....I feel fat the whole day that day....Hahahaha!!! Hrrrmmm, she actually promise to sponsore me [as a belated birthday present] when she come back from KL...She Love u 'personally' drove to Inti to pick me up ( where she got lost halfway..haahhaahhaa ) Bring me to Tom's...Order some huge burger there, then get our drinks from Bing....I never know that U can actually order your food or drinks from Toms and eat it in Bing....and vice verse..Thats like soo cool...

Zee, I love you soo muchieee!!!

P/s : If u plan to change your contact number dear, pls inform me....Hehehehhee....

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I'm like soo bored soo I posted this...

Article 1:

Statement of Love:
The Kiss

1. Kiss on the hand
~> I adore you

2. Kiss on the cheek
~> I just want to be friends

3. Kiss on the neck
~> I want you

4. Kiss on the lips
~> I love you

5. Kiss on the ears
~> I am just playing

6. Kiss anywhere else
~> Lets not get carried away

7. Look in your eyes
~> Kiss me

8. Playing with your hair
~> I can't live without you

9. Hand on your waist
~> I love you to much to let you go

Article 2:

The Three Steps

1. Girls:
~> If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him...
*Oh yeaahh!! Or punch him straight on the nose!!*

2. Guys
~> If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good...
*Uh-huh...At least she dun break ur nose...*

3.Guys & Girls
~> Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.

Article 3:

The Commandments.

1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.

2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.

3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity...
* Uh-huh...;-p *

~ Remember ~
A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes,
and give your tongue
some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo.

2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.

3. How cute they look when they sleep.

4.The ease in which they fit into our arms.

5.The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.

6. How cute they are when they eat... * really?? But I dun tink I look cute when I eat...*

7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.

8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth...* yeah rite...Soo sarcastic...*

11. How cute they are when they argue...* ah-hah!! No wonder he owes wana pick a fight..And in the end he'll say "I love to see ur face when u're mad"...Watha...*

12. The way her hand always finds yours.

13. The way they smile.

14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight...* see my surname??? Please laa..Obviously theres sumthing goin on...*

15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them.

17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"..*apparently..I'm still waiting..*

18. Actually...Just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt.

22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt.(even though we don't admit it)!

23. The way they say "I miss you"

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to change the world
so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....
Yet regardless if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die or
know that you would die without them ...
it matters not.

Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to the depths of their souls and
you say a million things without trace of a sound,
you know that your own life is inevitable consumed
within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

I hate to feel this way...

God, I hope in this I'm not blind
as fantasy takes hold of my mind.
A real person is behind that face,
that voice;
those words.

Am I truly seeing the man behind that name?
Or rather
falling for the fantasy that exists in that space between
Waking and sleep
Sparks and hope?
I dont want to put high hopes lord,
But I'm not sure if I could bear the pain.

Is it love? I doubt..
But it grows.
I need to know him in the flesh, lord.
For curiosity kills this girl,
Distance makes me see this dream,
That which I want but can never truly have.

I..Am a dreamer;
Clutching to a mutual desire,
Completely unsure of where I stand;
Hoping, on faith, that I won't fall so deep,
Won't drown in the dream;
until reality fishes them out.
leaving myself on the shore
Cold and wet.

I think I will give into this dream
though my nature hates to submit.
The decision is mine and tho blindfolded,
I submerge myself
and hope to God I don't drown.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Done with Final...

Uh-huuhh....Oh yeahh!!!
I'm on my semester break now...Finally had the strength to type out something here....

Ehhh....Hardgay!! When are u gona ask me out again???

Final was ok...I guess....Think I did better then last semester...Prayfully...Amen...
Time really flies...I'm ending my 3rd semester of my A-level now....Next sem gona be my last....Gosshh!! I'm so definitely gona mish Inti....
And by the end of may, I'll soon be sitting for my AS exam...My 1st part of Cambridge Uni's paper!!! God have mercy on me!! I'm sooo damn fucking scared @ worried right now....And of course, theres no 'having fun' this holiday...HaiihH!!!! Sucks laa...

Woww!!! What can I say?? Life been really hectic lately...Dont even have the time to blog something out...Sorry guys n gurls....

Wat else ahh??

Owhh..I'm helping my friend to break up with her boy....Huuuhuuu :-( ....Who the hell ask him to disrespect my boy and my think i'm like those bitch u play around with izit??? Come on laa...Look at yourself...I'm not impressed at all....Soory to say la pri...Im like fucking pissed of his action bahh....N lord please forgive me for using such harsh words....

Talk about my boy...Hrrrmmmm....Dunno laa....I love him...But Im not sure weather I can trust him with all my heart..I sense something...Though not sure what it is...Huuuhuuu...I hate this...Each time when Im beginning to settle down, there must be something that will stand on my truth is, I knew that our relationship won't last long....Just waiting for the right time to catch the culprit...I wish I couldd dig some more info bout what I heard...DAmnn!! I want some clarification now!! Fuck!! It kills me to see him everyday and smile with him, pretending that I duno @ wunt know anything....UuurrgghhHHhH!!!!

For now, I know that I love him...So much....But still, I'm not giving all my souls to him....Ggessshh!!! Why does he came into my life??? And hez the most perfect guy I've ever meet...I mean among the boyfriend'm scared of this relationship....I'm not strong enough to handle the pain later in the future....If something really happens to us 'soon'...And if it comes true, that I'll make sure I win it in a good way...

But hey, I'm still with my babe now....Leading a normal life as usual...Those are just some doubt that fills my mind now....Am crossing my fingers for it not to happen....yaadaaayyaadaa...

DAmmNnittT!!!! I miss clubbing!!! *fuck*

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Im feeling insecure...

I was jealous,
but I put up with it.
I tried to be there for you if I could,
but it picked at me bit by bit.

I told you that I cared,
I told you how it made me feel.
But you never believed me,
and that these feelings are real.

I asked you to tell me the truth,
I wanted to know exactly what was going on.
But you never had an answer,
I don’t think I would care if you were gone.

You lead me on,
then you let me down.
In my love for you,
I could easily drown.

I would lie, beg or steal,
if it would make you love me.
Is there anything that could make it happen?
Could you maybe open you’re eyes and see?

I wish that I had taken my chance,
that I had fought of the scare.
I'm ready to back off,
But are you??

~ anonymous~

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Happy April FOOL!!!

1st of April...
The uncertain of the origin of a foolish day....*huh??? wtf...*

Thank God I didnt get fooled by anyone...hahahaa....
And too bad...Was out of airtime to messed around people's life today....Sieennn....

OMG!!! I realize dat I've only posted 1 post last month...DArrnn!! Soo very2 lazy nowadays....

Finally, get to celebrate my belated birthday with Pri...Yeah..I noe...The actual date was like 3 weeks ago...But who cares??? It was a blast tho!!! Unbelievable...
Even the police wanted to join us....But we manage to 'shoo' dem away....

Neway, its Bie's Birthday today!!!! Hahahahaha!!! Wat a coincidence....April fool's baby...
Wished I'd make a fool of him today....But I think better not... I'm not mean enough to spoil his big day...uhuuhuuu...

*Uh-huh...I noe he loves brown..*

Enjoy urself yaaa....Eventho I cudnt make it...
Ammm sooo soory.....Will make it up to YOU sumday.....
~ Somewhere.....Over the
EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED bie...God Bless You n ur wishes...
Mish u here...

*duuhh!!! If only he read this....*

Herez sumthing for you....

Dun get 'too' high babe....

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Been a while since I've updated huh??
Woww!! Amm soo damn lazy nowadays...Hrrrmmm...
Finally, I'm settled down now...Thank God!! Thanks for all those blessings HE'd poured on me...
Hell yeah...Am enjoying my life sooo far...WTF!!

Soo...Wana noe wat I've accomplished last month?? hahaahahaaa...

I'm the founder of "SIPAI CLUB"...Specially joined by those bitch and those who bitches you proclaim urself as one of the above...You're definitely welcome to join us...hahaha..

Studies is killing me!! So many chapter and assignment but soo little time...

Lecturers are pushing me to work harder...

I'm always in and out of problems...hrrrmmm...

I'm in LOVE!!!

I'm smiling 24/7 now...

I celebrated Valentine day!!! Awwww!!!

Got a box of Perfume and Chocolate for V'tine Day...Had my first candlelight dinner...hehehehee ;-P

I gained a few pound...Not good..Not good...Damnn!!

I hurt people...I rejected people...Tho people talks about me and hurt me...

Counting days to prom, its on the 8th...But problem..problem...Im stuck with what to wear...Everyone seems sooo rich to rent a dress from the bridal...I'd rather buy one...Too bad theres no pretty @ nice @ amazing dress one sold out there...Huuhuu...

Counting days to My 19th Birthday!!!! Weeee!!! But...When can I celebrate it?? Im soo occupied on every weekend of march...Haaiihh!!! And I'm on tight budget...

Excerpts from the inspiration poem:

"i am running into a new year"
~ by Lucille Clifton ~

"i am running into a new year
and the old years blow back
like a wind
that i catch in my hair..."

all my old promises and
it will be hard to let go
of what i said to myself
about myself
when i was sixteen and..."

"...even thirtysix but
i am running into a new year
and i beg what i love and
i leave to forgive me"

Sunday, February 17, 2008

U readers out there.....

If u're from Malaysia....Please...Please..Pleasss.....Vote for Kuala Lumpur for the world's first Global Monopoly....Its the world edition!!!

Its on

For now, they have selected 68 great cities (including KL) for us to choose...

Vote for your top 10 cities…And keep voting every day!!!

The 20 pre-selected cities with the highest worldwide votes on February 29 2008 will make it onto the board. Plus, you will have from March 1 to March 9 2008 to vote on the most nominated Wildcard cities. Only the top two will make it on the board!

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Finally, its holiday!!! Tho its only for 1 week...Am soo glad that Chinese New Year is finally here...The intension was to get loads of ang pao this CNY...Coz amm sooo damn fuckin broke rite now...UuurrrrggghH!!!!

Anyway, Sharon n I went to the airport yesterday to pick Joanna up....My BFF!!! Its been a while since I meet her...And of course, we omoz cried at the airport upon meeting each other...Aahhh!!! I just missed her soo much!!!

Sadly, Sharon fly back to Australia on that very same day...Night....*Huuhuuu* The 3 of us didnt get to hang out for long...We get to go to tHe Spring....Had our lunch at 'Sushi King'...And as usual, Sharon generously forked out a blue note n paid for everything...

Im very thankful

HRrrmmMm....Theres a lot of thing going in and out of my mind now...Am not sure how to express this feeling tho...Previous problems are yet to be settled...And then comes a new one...*Siigghh!!*

Its like everyone tidak puas hati with me...Why is dat soo?? Have I done anything wrong?? Have I offended you??? UuurrgghhHHhhhH!! Once, I was told "don't please others just to make them happy and displease yourself" Well, it really makes sense now...All this time, I've been pleasing people...Saying 'OK' and 'YES' to them eventho deep down inside I wanted to say 'NO'...Huuhuuu....And in the end, it kills me...And yeah..I got the blame for everything...DuhH!!! As if its my fault!!! DAmmitt!!

Another thing...Im not using anyone to replace anyone@ forget anyone...Geesshh!!

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Friday, January 25, 2008


=> Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!!
Ooppss...(Oh yeah, u're not "popular" if U've slept with more than 6 guys...Coz u're a HOE@ whore!!)

=> Guys maybe flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about...

=> Guys go crazy over a girl's smile... *Izzit??? hrrmm...Coool...*

=> Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him...

=> Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-Bf or ex love -interest...

=> Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved... * ahh-haa...Oso need to be manja meh??? *

=> Don't talk about ur guy-friends to ur Boyfriend...

=> Guys get jealous easily... * Haaahhaaa!! Obviously... *

=> Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think...* EGO-ISM of course..No comment...*

=> Giving a guy a hanging message like "You noe wat??!! uUrrmm...Nevermind..." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking...And he'll assume that he did something wrong and he'll get obsess about it trying to figure out what it is... * Heehhee... Yaa..yaa...I noe who that person can be...*

=> Guys are good flatters when courting but are usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like..

=> A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you... * Really?? I'll try it den...U there!! Be ready!!*

=> Guys love you more than you love them if they're really serious in the relationship...

=> Guys think way TOO MUCH... One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it...It can make the guy think about it for hours, tryin to figure out what it meant...

=> Guys seek for advise from girls not other guys...Because most guys think alike..So if one guy get confused, then so as the other...

=> When a guy ask you to leave him alone, he'z actually saying "please come and listen to me.." * Awww!!! So sweet...!!! *

=> If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him..It doesn't happen that often..So when it does, you knoe that sumthingz up...

=> If ur best friend seems to avoid you or never around when ur're with ur Bf...Hez probably jealous and yeah he likes u...

=> When a guys tell you that u are beautiful..Don't say u aren't..It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them...

=> When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he'z definitely thinking of something... * Hrrrmmm...I wonder what....*

=> Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.... * Oh yeah??? Ciss...I owes got punched wat...!!! Huuhuuu*

=> Guys has more problems than you can see with ur naked eyes... * Poor thing..Wish I can help thoo... *

=> Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys... * Aahhh-haaa!!! No wonder laa... *

=> Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more...

=> If you are going to reject a guy, just do it...Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more...Tell them that you're aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you...

=> Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them...

=> When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, dat means he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

I'm NOT Ok...

Its a mistake...It shudn't have happened...O God, help me to overcome this...Why do I always fall?? And once I fall, I'll fall down really hard... :-(

Once again, I fall for the wrong guy...WTF!! Or maybe I was in the wrong situation...All this while, I've been telling myself that I'm just confused...Telling myself that the feeling is not real...Keep reminding myself that hez not mine...and will never be...DAmNn!!

Am sooo foolish to believe that I might have a chance...Guess I'm too stubborn to accept the fact that he belongs to someone else...Great!! Im just hurting myself even more...Its my fault tho...Even though there are loads of other guy out there...I stubbornly choose the one that Im suppose to stand away from....Sometime, I just dont understand myself....*blur*
And why on earth is this soooo painful??!!!

For 2 nights, I've been sleeping-not-soundly-n-not peacefully with those thoughts...My mind is a messed!! Gosshh!! I even planned to go out and get drunk 2 night ago...But I guess luck wasnt on my side again...Some technical problem occur that no one picks me up and I got stuck at home...Crying myself to sleep when I think of it...Cant believe I smoke today tho...Hell its like me smoking for the first time for this situation...Well, Im not an addicted smoker ok...Stupid brother...Keep your cigars out of my sight laa!!!

"With you" is on the speaker now...Huuuhuuu...Reminds me of him tho...DaRrrnNN!! Instead of admiring my favourite song, am actually starting to shed tears...UuurrgrggHH!H!!!! I hate it!! Hate this fuckin feeling!! And why am I so fuckin emotional???!!!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Happy Birthday...

is 1 year old today!!!

Yayyy!! Thanks to all u readers out there...For reading this lame blog of mine....And also to those whos given me all the comments, support and advices...

* Wish I could change my URL laa...huuhuu...*

Thursday, January 17, 2008

The Perfect Lover

Read this somewhere...So, I decide to post it...
Its VERY interesting....Hahaahaa...
How I wish I get to experience it...Well, I did actually...But only some of it tho...
Anywhere, this is not my work ok....

Every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. Even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.

• leave her cute text notes.

• kiss her in front of your friends.

• tell her she is gorgeous..

• look into her eyes when you talk to her.

• let her mess with your hair

• touch her hair.

• just walk around with her.


• look at her like she's the only one you see.

• tickle her even when she says stop.

• hold her hand when you're around your friends.

• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.

• let her fall asleep in your arms..

• get her mad, then kiss her.

• tease her and let her tease you back.

• stay up all night with her when she's sick.

• watch her favorite movie with her.

• kiss her forehead.

• give her the world.

• write her letters.

• let her wear your clothes.

• when she's sad, hang out with her.

• let her know she's important.

• let her take all the photos she wants of you.

• kiss her in the pouring rain.

• when you fall in love with her, tell her.

• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Story with beautiful meaning...

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind of scared, so he asked his little girl,
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river.."

The little girl then say, "No dad, you hold my hand.."

"Whats the different??"
Asked the puzzled father...

"Theres a big difference", replied the little girl.." If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chance are that I may let your hand go...But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happen, you will never let my hand go..."

So, dearest reader out there...Hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting them to hold yours...

Yeah...I know..This story is tooo short..But it carries a lot of meaning + feeling tho...

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

School just started...And Im not happy at all..I missed my friend tho...Hey!! Wheres my Xmas n New Year present??? hehehee...I missed KL too...Wish I was there a little bit longer...

Soory for not posting stuff about my holiday in KL and Ipoh...Theres too many things to mention...From walking to Jusco everyday to shop, then to KLCC again to shop, had sushi for supper everynite...3 hours trip to Ipoh, went to Ipoh Parade to shop, the wedding dinner (encounter some weird guy flirting me...Get lost laa!!), the non-stop eating trip, back to Kl again...

Move to another's uncle house at subang jaya, shop at Subang Parade, roasted turkey for Xmas eve ( I do all the stuffing and sewing ok..) Woke up damn early for church services, then eat then proceed to 1 Utama to shop, then to Giant...Next day, go to Sunway Pyramid..Ice skate for the first time and I never fell!!! Hahahaa...Shopping again...

Move back to another house at Wangsa Maju...Went to Times Square, Almost ride the roller bad its soo damn expensive during the holiday....Got my spongebob there..Then to Sungei Wang -BB Plaza..Shopping again...Shop..n Shop Shop!!

Blaaa..bllaa..blaa...See...How can I type every detail of my trip there???

OMG!!!! Im gona be soo damn broke this week!! *tsskk..tskk* Mummy had a bad day to day...I was told by my aunty that her handbag got stolen form the car....The thief broke the windscreen and took it...Stupid idiotic people...Im not sure tho whether shez in there at that time..She doesnt want to tell us about it...huuhuu...Even daddy doesnt know...She manage to fix the windscreen asap...I notice shez like soo quite the today...Guess she got traumatized from the incident...huuhuu...

Bout schools....I dont think I wana talk about it...I hate how I feel right now...Uurrrgghhh!!!! Its just the second week of the new semester and Im sorta having some tiny problems...haaaihh!!! I duno whether its me or somebody else created it....But obviously, Im in it and I took it seriously...Even though its noting....
o goshh!! I dun even know what the hell Im talking about...

NaaAa...*headache* Wana go to bed...

Lap U guysss...Muaakkxxx!!!

Saturday, January 5, 2008

To Those....

To My Friends Who Are.....SINGLE...

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose > the best <

To My Friends Who Are........NOT SO SINGLE...

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be

To My Friends Who Are.......PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE...

Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do
to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are......MARRIED...

Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.'
Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.'
Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.'
Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'

To My Friends Who Are.......ENGAGED....

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
but how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are........HEARTBROKEN

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are.......NAIVE...

How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,
share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are......POSSESSIVE....

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are......AFRAID TO CONFESS...

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel

To My Friends Who Are.......STILL HOLDING ON...

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.
~~ClueLess...We're on the ROAD to nowhere..I keep going back to the things that I need to walk away from..~~