Hez gone

Yerp.....he finally left.........Leaving Kuching............


Im not crying....Cause I know I'll see him in KL in a few days....Only after dat, I will shed tears.....I promise baby not to cry cause he dont want me to feel sad,he wants me to be happy cause he graduated.....But sorry dear, I can't lie...I'm indeed sad and lost.....


Baby, I got your shirt....I bring it home and I will bring it to KL....I will sleep with it every night...I know you'll be with me all the time....

My feelings I hide,

My insides, they cry.

Soon you'll leave,

Then my eyes shall cry.

You talk,

I restrain my hands,

For I fear I may choke you.

Don't you realise,

The pain you cause me?

My feelings are written on my face,

You're blind, why don't you respond?

When you're gone,

I'll tell you,

While you're here,

It's a secret.

Am happy......but sad again....

Met baby today!!!! Finally!!! 

Went to Kado for the first time.....Had my first lamb burger and its huge!!! I love!! Baby had his black pepper lamb rice and lamb burger....* No picture tho, cos I didnt thought of taking any picture * And he loves the food!!! Yeah, it was delicious!!! He was upset tho that we only went there for the first time today, since hez leaving soon........Cause that would probably be his first and last time dining there.......huuhuuu...so sad........Sooorryyy la dear, I only get to know about the place recently........

Owh, we drive pass our 2nd home too.....Lol....We really missed the house, especially the room.....We spent most of our time there; watching movies, eating pizza or his 'home' food...Oh, Im soo gonna miss his cooking.........

Yerp, is his former house...Taken from inside the car....The new owner was seen cleaning the place.........

I gave baby something today, for him to bring home.........for his graduation @ for him to remember me.....I wished I had taken picture of it, so I can remember it too....swt...And I'm happy that he loves it!!! He said so himself!!

Anyhow, I'll be leaving Kuching next week too....*eyes beaming* Furthering my study in UCSI KL...........Thank God mummy finally give up on asking me to take up engineering, cause one thing for sure, I'm not sure if I can cope with it........I'm glad too that I leave Kuching for a while...I think I need it...This place will just remind me of baby one way or the other....Its like we've step foot in almost all the familiar places here...At least being far away from here would maybe give me peace and that I can focus more on my study............Hrrrrmmm, will miss u soo much dear....Pray for my success!!! I will definitely keep every advise you gave me and use it wisely......

2nd day

Baby came early to get me today.....Right, to spend time with him........

Got to his place and somehow notice some things have changed.....His room isn't as tidy as it use to be,things just scattered around the floor......I ask him "why is ur room so messy?? I thought u're a clean person??" His only answer was " I'm leaving, wat do u expect???" So i just keep quiet...Do u know that harsh baby?? It hurts........Well, I know he wants to keep thing as normal as it could, but thats impossible dear....We both know that u're leaving ok......

And so the whole afternoon, we were busy cleaning his room, packing his stuff.......Being a student oversea is a major headache when u're done with schools...got loads of things to pack home, but not much of "allowed baggage".......While he pack, I help discarding other unnecessary stuff from his drawer, wardrobe...Watching every move of him packing his thing just broke my heart.....I still can't believe that its time...its just too soon....He left me something though....Pictures, shirt (with his smell still intake), player, iron (its a waste to leave it there so I just took it), comforter, speaker, mini x'mas tree and so on....

* Soorry got no picture at all,was to engrossed with the cleaning, and him too....

Halfway thru, we lie down on the bed resting....There was a moment of silence when suddenly, I broke down and cried,soo much that he freaked........He use to tell me that hes scared if a gurl shed tears, he could run away....But thank god, with me he willingly lend his shoulder......I just love it when he stroke my hair and kiss my forehead, I'm gonna miss that the most baby......He was soo comforting, his words just soothes my feeling...He ask me not to cry or I'll hurt myself....That when he realized that I had heavy eyebags, and all he did was never let go....

We then ordered pizza, and enjoy it in that very room.....That was probably our last pizza together, last time in the room too......dammmnnn, this is soo sad....

Alrite, I'm done for today........too exhausted...

Heres my favourite flower for u dear.....For your save journey home...Hope you love it.....

And I definitely hope that one day u will come back for me with these adorable tulips.......

 "I will miss you" and "One thing for sure, I will see you again"
- via text msg by him on 230410.

I love u baby.....

Condolence For A Fren Of Mine....

Why is life so VULNERABLE???

I just got a news that my friend's gf died few days ago back in Africa....Due to fire incident...OMG...I was totally shock + nervous + scared + pain in the chest like somebody just stabbed me....yaayydaaayyaadaaa...Geeessshh!! Its like I was the one who lost somebody close to me....Damnn!! It hit me real hard...

Just few months ago another friend of mine was talking bout his late father....And yeah...Was almost in tears when I heardhis story....Then just last week, my bf remembered his late sister (after listening to some song)....And he finally let it out to me....I never dare to question about it cause I know how sensitive this issue is to him....O my God...I never for once see how a tough guy like him become soo sad...He didnt show it...But just by looking into his eyes...I feel the pain...And then this...Died in a fire...O osshh!! I cant imagine it...I dont even wana go to that part...I feel the impact on me even though I dont noe who she is...


Hey T,

I’m so sorry to hear of your recent loss;
I’m sending my sympathy;
If you need someone to help you now,
Please, friend, call on me.

Remember that shez gona be with you...Always...
Be strong friend...Life goes on....

Happy April FOOL!!!

1st of April...
The uncertain of the origin of a foolish day....*huh??? wtf...*

Thank God I didnt get fooled by anyone...hahahaa....
And too bad...Was out of airtime to messed around people's life today....Sieennn....

OMG!!! I realize dat I've only posted 1 post last month...DArrnn!! Soo very2 lazy nowadays....

Finally, get to celebrate my belated birthday with Pri...Yeah..I noe...The actual date was like 3 weeks ago...But who cares??? It was a blast tho!!! Unbelievable...
Even the police wanted to join us....But we manage to 'shoo' dem away....

Neway, its Bie's Birthday today!!!! Hahahahaha!!! Wat a coincidence....April fool's baby...
Wished I'd make a fool of him today....But I think better not... I'm not mean enough to spoil his big day...uhuuhuuu...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!!
*Uh-huh...I noe he loves brown..*

Enjoy urself yaaa....Eventho I cudnt make it...
Ammm sooo soory.....Will make it up to YOU sumday.....
~ Somewhere.....Over the rainbow.....wtf~
EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED bie...God Bless You n ur wishes...
Mish u here...

*duuhh!!! If only he read this....*

Herez sumthing for you....

Hrrrrmmmm.....Interesting....
Dun get 'too' high babe....

HapPY BirThdAy t0 ME!!!!

Yeah.. Dat was a few days ago. Which on the 4th of March. My Sweet 18th BIRTHDAY!!! "Errmm, tot 'sweet' is only 4 those becuming 16?? As in ~sweet 16teen~" Which is correct?? Arrghh!! Hantam saja laa..Oh ya, I shared my birthday with Jason (same date and year wor) and Betram.

Happy Birthday to U too!!

Mommy finally decided to throw small little party for me...Must wat...Dun celebrate it for so long liaw..Usually whenever's whos birthday comes [among our family], dady wud bring us out for dinner..We go different place every year..Sumtime the MJC lo, Batu Lintang lo, BDC lo. *mana lagi ye??* Sumtime even went to the same place twice...Ngaitii..Kinda sien ordy..

Actually mommy dun wan.Say lazy ler, house so messy laa..Apa laa..Blaa..blaa..But sumhow my uncle 'force' her and manage to pujuk her. Well, nobody can say "NO" to Uncle F..Hez like the [BOZ] in our big-big family (dat includes my uncle n aunty of my mom's side lo). Once, my aunty was admitted to hospital for few weeks because of an 'accident'..And guess wat..Not one of her so called FRIENDS who use to hang out with her, even balik kampung (our kampung, dey take my granma's fruit back to Kuching!!) with her come to visit her..And so my uncle lecture her lo..Hahaha...She juz lie there listen nia.. Kesian..

~BACK FROM ADVERTISMENT!!~

I only get to celebrate it with my relative..NO friends!! Huhuuuhuu...Dey chickened out ler..Hahaha..NO lar..All of dem got there own thing @ bussiness to do..Sum go damai lo..Sum go church thingy lo.. Another go party lo..Do watever thing with whomever lo.I duno, dun care...heehehe...By the way, I 'off' quite early dat day..Around 7 lyk dat..Haha...Juz love my taukey so much!! Hez to good ler..So kind-hearted of him to let me off so early..

My BIRTHDAY cake.

The cake got NO name ler..Tsk..Tsk...Coz it was last minute plan. So mummy get the every-ready cake....Bithday isnt complete without cake wat..So cant complain..Ngaiti!! I tot she'll get me sumting "without icing"..But the cake she bought was so fatty ler!!! EeeEE!!
So, the event was ; lighting candle , den sing-along lo, den close my eyes while making wish *fingers cross, hope it'll cum TRUE* , blow candle [everyone took sum photo] *snap,snap* , cut cake, den stuff it into my mouth [again taken few photo] *snap, snap* Den everyone feast!! Dady cooked everything..Got all kinds of food from the chinese's style to dayak's style..Of course sum bring their own 'recipe' too..Eat till wana puke err...

And I get lots-lotsa 'ang-pao' ler..Hehehe...Im like soo lucky!! I just collected angpao few weeks ago during Chinese New Year..And a few more packet flow into my pocket on my birthday...Woah!! Wait till I got my pay again...Den I'll be spending lotsa money after this..Hahaha!!! By the way, I received cute little present from my cuzzie...Which was -->Spongebob Squarepants<--- and from Hosanna n Ai Fang :--->bracelet<----

*Thankx U sooo much!!!*

Soon, my house becomes 'football-fanatic-gambling-ground'. So cun that night MAN U played against Liverpool. Both my uncle bet for 50bucks on their own favourite team...Too bad the score was 2-1 [forgot which team won].. If the score was even, I mite get hold of dat 100buckz...WAH!!! How nice!!!