Hez gone

Yerp.....he finally left.........Leaving Kuching............


Im not crying....Cause I know I'll see him in KL in a few days....Only after dat, I will shed tears.....I promise baby not to cry cause he dont want me to feel sad,he wants me to be happy cause he graduated.....But sorry dear, I can't lie...I'm indeed sad and lost.....


Baby, I got your shirt....I bring it home and I will bring it to KL....I will sleep with it every night...I know you'll be with me all the time....

My feelings I hide,

My insides, they cry.

Soon you'll leave,

Then my eyes shall cry.

You talk,

I restrain my hands,

For I fear I may choke you.

Don't you realise,

The pain you cause me?

My feelings are written on my face,

You're blind, why don't you respond?

When you're gone,

I'll tell you,

While you're here,

It's a secret.

Am happy......but sad again....

Met baby today!!!! Finally!!! 

Went to Kado for the first time.....Had my first lamb burger and its huge!!! I love!! Baby had his black pepper lamb rice and lamb burger....* No picture tho, cos I didnt thought of taking any picture * And he loves the food!!! Yeah, it was delicious!!! He was upset tho that we only went there for the first time today, since hez leaving soon........Cause that would probably be his first and last time dining there.......huuhuuu...so sad........Sooorryyy la dear, I only get to know about the place recently........

Owh, we drive pass our 2nd home too.....Lol....We really missed the house, especially the room.....We spent most of our time there; watching movies, eating pizza or his 'home' food...Oh, Im soo gonna miss his cooking.........

Yerp, is his former house...Taken from inside the car....The new owner was seen cleaning the place.........

I gave baby something today, for him to bring home.........for his graduation @ for him to remember me.....I wished I had taken picture of it, so I can remember it too....swt...And I'm happy that he loves it!!! He said so himself!!

Anyhow, I'll be leaving Kuching next week too....*eyes beaming* Furthering my study in UCSI KL...........Thank God mummy finally give up on asking me to take up engineering, cause one thing for sure, I'm not sure if I can cope with it........I'm glad too that I leave Kuching for a while...I think I need it...This place will just remind me of baby one way or the other....Its like we've step foot in almost all the familiar places here...At least being far away from here would maybe give me peace and that I can focus more on my study............Hrrrrmmm, will miss u soo much dear....Pray for my success!!! I will definitely keep every advise you gave me and use it wisely......

sorry

Dear Mummy and Daddy,

I'm soo soorry for today....For forcing both of you to do something for me....But I need this....I need to do what I want to do, what I love to do....For this, I will always remember the sacrifice u've made for me............I will always keep in mind all your advise and prayfully will succeed in life eventhough I've decide to go on my own way........I will make sure that I graduate and that u'll be proud of me one day....

I'm sorry for letting you down... I'm sorry for breaking your dreams... I'm sorry for causing you pain... I'm sorry for being the reason of your tears... I'm sorry that my words Are not what you want to hear... I'm sorry that my face Is not what you want to see... I'm sorry for not being able to express myself And hiding in my shell... I'm sorry for not being perfect And ruining all that I touch... I'm sorry for not being what you want me to be... I'm sorry for being me... and I love you......

Miss him on Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday

I hope I'll see him tomorrow.....After all we've got only few days left....

Hes having some problem recently, thats why I have to leave him alone to sort it out....Am not gona jump into the lion's mouth just to gained his attention....I'm not like that....And I definitely wunt want him to get irritated and hates me....He can be really scary sometime...But one thing I love the most about him is that no matter how angry or upset he is, he will never ever ever lay a single hand on me.....Nope, he'll never slap nor hit me....and will never put the blame on me.....I love u baby  ♥

To the guy who messed with him....Fuck u....Ya, hell ya........Do you think what you did was good??? I curse you in the future when its time for you to leave this country.....You wont have any single cents at all to travel, I swear!! Another one, I curse that you wunt get to graduate!!!!

Hrrrmmm....Back to reality.....I'm joblesss........Hell yaa...shitty......Mommy and daddy why are you soo stubborn?????? Do u really wana see me staying at home all day??? Why cant you just let me study what I want to study??? Whhhhhhhhyyyyyyy?????????? Its almost a year now!! I'm really eager to go back to school!!!! Please laaa, once I give up, theres no turning back again...And I will definitely put education behind...............So please, dont spoil my mood now...Not now.........I beg you......And for the last time, I'm NOT gonna study ENGINEERING!!!!!! Im not interested in it!! Why do you want to force me into doing something I dont like???????? Arrrrhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Oh dear, I'm out of my mind..........This study issue have been going on for the past 8months now......And everytime when I want to join the college's next intake, they start giving me headache..........So that is why I'm still jobless......Dammmn, they are sooo freakin ignorant!!! If only I can kill myself so they'll 'wake up'!!!

No worries....I wunt do such thing........its a sin, a huge one.....I've commited serious sin once and Im not goin to create another one again...

Change topic.....Baby's topic makes me happier....lol....

Baby, honestly, I dont want you to go...But I have no choice, like you....Well, I have no say at all....Family first aite?? I wish I'm your family....Then, U mite consider to stay..........Oh well, gota go cos am feeling tears coming............

AND 

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Our Interacial Relationship.......

This is sweettt................I loikee!!!

Baby, we had this before....Our differences....And I love every moment being with you......Im glad i had u bie.....

I love you..............always.......♥

NST Online Striving to put Nigerians back in positive light

NST Online Striving to put Nigerians back in positive light

I personally think we should just stop generalizing this nation as the 'bad people'.....Like seriously, God created the word crime, means we have crime and it happen to every nation every country of the world.........Discriminating other race / nations wunt help in solving this problems.....Try google up these kind of issues, focus on comments and believe it or not, we're actually being known by other foreigner that Malaysia = Malaysian are a racist country.......swt....I'm ashamed of this......

But hey, I'm not surprised at all....We're even racist towards each other, towards the other race in the same country....What happen to "malaysia truly asia??" All those "mix races live harmoniously" here are actually bullshit......Even ministers and politicians are fighting against each other........Its just to blind tourist to come and visit malaysia and at the same time generate revenue to the country...

I just thank Lord that we still have the brain to stay calm among ourselves instead of resulting this whole issues into war..........

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