So lazy to update laaa!!!!!!!

Soooryy Zee, I know u've been checking up on me.....But am tooo busy + lazy to update nowadays.....Ada story pun kedak xda story.....
Plus, we're having our external exam soon u noe.....Around mid october....Soo gotta really struggle for it...Since my AS result suxx....Don't ask what did I get.....

Btw, no pictures for IntiFest and Kuching Fest Stret Parade....Sooryyy people...Need a brand new camera.....

August :
2 weeks holiday was totally suxx ( end of august )...All I did was study, study, study...And in fact not a serious one....Was stranded at home all through the week, except if my cousin came to culik me out laaa....Then there was problem arised by the bf's house agent....Stupid old lady don't pay the house rent to the landlord, and instead eat all the money up...F**kin murtha fcuker...After the whole thing settled, where the bf have to pay the house rent again for the second time, he flew to KL and enjoy himself there...Release tension + stress...bllaaabllaalbaa....Abandon me here all alone....*huuuhhuuuhuu*

Then was having some conflict with some bitch whom somehow cant let go of her ex bf which is currently my bf....wtf....Malas la wana story....Buat sakit hati jak....Somehow people just don't like us to be together....

Wat else??? Owhh..Merdeka celebration.....Which is the next day after my conflict with the bitch and the bf....Suppose to go club for the countdown, release tension la tek.....But then my friend cancelled the plan and decide to join someone's birthday party, which I'm not interested in....Cried whole night + no appetite to eat still wana go people's birthday....Soooryy laa...Not in the mood....


September :
Not yet laaa....Maybe next update....hehehehee.....


And lastly....Am broke!!!! Arrrggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need cashh!!!!!

Hye there,

Am busy.....Obviously.....
With IntiFest....Some sort of food fair in college...And I'm in charge of decoration....
This year aiming for "Best Stall Decoration" and "Best Profit"...Hopefully get one of those...hehehehe....Thats why soo busy....Our department got 2 stall to set and decorate..Huuhuu...And all I know is that I have biology brain instead of creative brain....U get wat I mean....

Then I'm also taking part in Kuching Parade....This year gona be a blast for our college.....We're wearing extra ordinary costume apart from the ordinary cultural costume....Hahahahaha....Too bad I'm still deciding on the costume....Curious??? Go and witness it for yourself...Its on 1st August at the city....KUCHING laaa....And of course, this year we're expeccting to win....Hehehehe....I'm not sure about the the title of the category tho...

Orite now, gotta go and finish up my decorating stuff thingy.....Its this saturday, 2nd August....DAmMm!!! My feet gona hurt after the long walk the night before.....*yaaayyadaaa yaadaaa....*
Will update again about those event.....Hopefully with some pictures this time.....

Nite..nite...

Condolence For A Fren Of Mine....

Why is life so VULNERABLE???

I just got a news that my friend's gf died few days ago back in Africa....Due to fire incident...OMG...I was totally shock + nervous + scared + pain in the chest like somebody just stabbed me....yaayydaaayyaadaaa...Geeessshh!! Its like I was the one who lost somebody close to me....Damnn!! It hit me real hard...

Just few months ago another friend of mine was talking bout his late father....And yeah...Was almost in tears when I heardhis story....Then just last week, my bf remembered his late sister (after listening to some song)....And he finally let it out to me....I never dare to question about it cause I know how sensitive this issue is to him....O my God...I never for once see how a tough guy like him become soo sad...He didnt show it...But just by looking into his eyes...I feel the pain...And then this...Died in a fire...O osshh!! I cant imagine it...I dont even wana go to that part...I feel the impact on me even though I dont noe who she is...


Hey T,

I’m so sorry to hear of your recent loss;
I’m sending my sympathy;
If you need someone to help you now,
Please, friend, call on me.

Remember that shez gona be with you...Always...
Be strong friend...Life goes on....

Soory for the late update people...Been very-very busy lately....Huuuhuuu....

Busy revising for my external exam, that started on 15th May.....Coincidently falls on the same date as Yan's birthday....Sooory my dear for I cannot celebrate it with you.....But I do have something for you tho.....Just searching for time to give it to you....Well, actually the problem lies on how to give the pressie to you...For all you know, I still cant drive the car out anytime I want...Pathetic...And I think I've develop 'phobia-tic' feeling on driving my mom's manual car....Long story cut short..I'm sooo use to driving my aunty's and the bf's automatic car....huuuhuuu.....

Ok, cut the crap....Yan...U just wait yaa...Anytime I just stop by ur hse....

Secondly, this is for Azee....I bet u'll read this....Thanks for sponsoring me the other day....I feel fat the whole day that day....Hahahaha!!! Hrrrmmm, she actually promise to sponsore me [as a belated birthday present] when she come back from KL...She Love u 'personally' drove to Inti to pick me up ( where she got lost halfway..haahhaahhaa ) Bring me to Tom's...Order some huge burger there, then get our drinks from Bing....I never know that U can actually order your food or drinks from Toms and eat it in Bing....and vice verse..Thats like soo cool...

Zee, I love you soo muchieee!!!

P/s : If u plan to change your contact number dear, pls inform me....Hehehehhee....

I'm like soo bored soo I posted this...

Article 1:

Statement of Love:
The Kiss

1. Kiss on the hand
~> I adore you

2. Kiss on the cheek
~> I just want to be friends

3. Kiss on the neck
~> I want you

4. Kiss on the lips
~> I love you

5. Kiss on the ears
~> I am just playing

6. Kiss anywhere else
~> Lets not get carried away

7. Look in your eyes
~> Kiss me

8. Playing with your hair
~> I can't live without you

9. Hand on your waist
~> I love you to much to let you go



Article 2:

The Three Steps

1. Girls:
~> If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him...
 *Oh yeaahh!! Or punch him straight on the nose!!*

2. Guys
~> If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good...
 *Uh-huh...At least she dun break ur nose...*

3.Guys & Girls
~> Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.


Article 3:

The Commandments.

1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.

2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.

3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity...
 * Uh-huh...;-p *

~ Remember ~
A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes,
and give your tongue
some exercise!!!

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo.

2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder.

3. How cute they look when they sleep.

4.The ease in which they fit into our arms.

5.The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world.

6. How cute they are when they eat... * really?? But I dun tink I look cute when I eat...*

7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while.

8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside.

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear.

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth...* yeah rite...Soo sarcastic...*

11. How cute they are when they argue...* ah-hah!! No wonder he owes wana pick a fight..And in the end he'll say "I love to see ur face when u're mad"...Watha...*

12. The way her hand always finds yours.

13. The way they smile.

14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight...* see my surname??? Please laa..Obviously theres sumthing goin on...*

15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them.

17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"..*apparently..I'm still waiting..*

18. Actually...Just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry.

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly.

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt.

22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt.(even though we don't admit it)!

23. The way they say "I miss you"

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to change the world
 so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....
 Yet regardless if you love them,
 hate them,
 wish they would die or
 know that you would die without them ...
 it matters not.

 Because once in your life,
 whatever they were to the world
 they become everything to you.
 When you look them in the eyes,
 traveling to the depths of their souls and
 you say a million things without trace of a sound,
 you know that your own life is inevitable consumed
 within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
 We love them for a million reasons,
 No paper would do it justice.
 It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
 A feeling.
 Only felt.

I hate to feel this way...

God, I hope in this I'm not blind
as fantasy takes hold of my mind.
A real person is behind that face,
that voice;
those words.

Am I truly seeing the man behind that name?
Or rather
falling for the fantasy that exists in that space between
Waking and sleep
Sparks and hope?
I dont want to put high hopes lord,
But I'm not sure if I could bear the pain.


Is it love? I doubt..
But it grows.
I need to know him in the flesh, lord.
For curiosity kills this girl,
Distance makes me see this dream,
That which I want but can never truly have.

I..Am a dreamer;
Clutching to a mutual desire,
Completely unsure of where I stand;
Hoping, on faith, that I won't fall so deep,
Won't drown in the dream;
until reality fishes them out.
leaving myself on the shore
Cold and wet.
Alone.

I think I will give into this dream
though my nature hates to submit.
The decision is mine and tho blindfolded,
I submerge myself
and hope to God I don't drown.

Done with Final...

Uh-huuhh....Oh yeahh!!!
I'm on my semester break now...Finally had the strength to type out something here....

Ehhh....Hardgay!! When are u gona ask me out again???

Final was ok...I guess....Think I did better then last semester...Prayfully...Amen...
Time really flies...I'm ending my 3rd semester of my A-level now....Next sem gona be my last....Gosshh!! I'm so definitely gona mish Inti....
And by the end of may, I'll soon be sitting for my AS exam...My 1st part of Cambridge Uni's paper!!! God have mercy on me!! I'm sooo damn fucking scared @ worried right now....And of course, theres no 'having fun' this holiday...HaiihH!!!! Sucks laa...

Woww!!! What can I say?? Life been really hectic lately...Dont even have the time to blog something out...Sorry guys n gurls....

Wat else ahh??

Owhh..I'm helping my friend to break up with her boy....Huuuhuuu :-( ....Who the hell ask him to disrespect my boy and my friend...wtf...U think i'm like those bitch u play around with izit??? Come on laa...Look at yourself...I'm not impressed at all....Soory to say la pri...Im like fucking pissed of his action bahh....N lord please forgive me for using such harsh words....

Talk about my boy...Hrrrmmmm....Dunno laa....I love him...But Im not sure weather I can trust him with all my heart..I sense something...Though not sure what it is...Huuuhuuu...I hate this...Each time when Im beginning to settle down, there must be something that will stand on my way....wtf...The truth is, I knew that our relationship won't last long....Just waiting for the right time to catch the culprit...I wish I couldd dig some more info bout what I heard...DAmnn!! I want some clarification now!! Fuck!! It kills me to see him everyday and smile with him, pretending that I duno @ wunt know anything....UuurrgghhHHhH!!!!

For now, I know that I love him...So much....But still, I'm not giving all my souls to him....Ggessshh!!! Why does he came into my life??? And hez the most perfect guy I've ever meet...I mean among the boyfriend laa...wtf..I'm scared of this relationship....I'm not strong enough to handle the pain later in the future....If something really happens to us 'soon'...And if it comes true, that I'll make sure I win it in a good way...

But hey, I'm still with my babe now....Leading a normal life as usual...Those are just some doubt that fills my mind now....Am crossing my fingers for it not to happen....yaadaaayyaadaa...

DAmmNnittT!!!! I miss clubbing!!! *fuck*

Im feeling insecure...

I was jealous,
but I put up with it.
I tried to be there for you if I could,
but it picked at me bit by bit.

I told you that I cared,
I told you how it made me feel.
But you never believed me,
and that these feelings are real.

I asked you to tell me the truth,
I wanted to know exactly what was going on.
But you never had an answer,
I don’t think I would care if you were gone.

You lead me on,
then you let me down.
In my love for you,
I could easily drown.

I would lie, beg or steal,
if it would make you love me.
Is there anything that could make it happen?
Could you maybe open you’re eyes and see?

I wish that I had taken my chance,
that I had fought of the scare.
I'm ready to back off,
But are you??

~ anonymous~